New Bras

Well I ordered some new bras that just came in today.  I've been waiting all week for them.  It makes me excited to wear them.  I bought four but one is on back order.  I've been a little anxious too since I didn't want my girlfriend to find the package in the mail.  Today is Friday so I was getting a little nervous they might not show up until tomorrow.  Luckily, they did arrive today! 

Here are pictures of the ones that came today.

This one I have in white.

I bought this one in black.

This one I ordered in the beige color shown.

This is the bra that is back ordered, it's in white.

L

Message

Okay, well I had another massage.  I did wear my beige bra and somewhat matching beige panties.  I laid them out a bit more obvious this time.  When I put the bra down, I placed it so the straps were out straight, not under the bra.

The massage was great, I love the way she starts by rubbing my back and then getting me to breath in deep a few times while she pushes down my back as I breath out.  It gets me to relax and in the right place to receive the massage.  She also spends time rubbing my head.  I love to have my head rubbed, her fingers running through my hair.  I love getting my hair washed for the same reason when I get it cut.  Its so relaxing. 

So after that getting me relaxed she does her thing while I'm face down.  Then when she turns me over I decided to open my eyes just a bit.  But before I had opened my eyes I started to get a boner.  It was a slow development.  I felt a bit shy at first, but then decided the hell with it so I encouraged it as much as I could.  I kept imagining how she had to look my bra when she first entered the room.  Then kept imagining her looking at it while she was massaging me from the position she was in.  I flicked my cock as much as I could to keep it hard.  I'm sure she noticed the tent.  It's not that I have a huge one, but it's decent size enough to make a nice tent.

I never open my eyes during a massage, easier to keep them closed.  I usually go somewhere else in my mind and just focus on relaxing.  But this time for whatever reason I decided to open my eyes a bit.  I wanted to see her hands really, which I did a little.  She was sitting on a stool most of the time so it was actually hard to see her. 

Then something surprising happened.  After I had turned over my had my legs more or less straight out, not open at all but relaxed straight out.  When she finished with my left leg she placed it to the side of the table somewhat.  Then after finishing my second leg she also put it to the side.  Essentially she had my legs spread open somewhat.  That felt sexy, have never had a masseuse do that before.  They always return them to the same relaxed straight position.  But here's the real surprise.  When she was coming back to my head on her rolling stool I saw her reach over with one hand to fondle my bra.  I'm not sure what she did but it was obvious she either picked it up or maybe read the label, but none the less I know she touched my bra.

When I went to dress it was very obvious that the bra had been disturbed.  Maybe she was trying to put it back in the original position after she had picked it up when she first came back into the room.  I'm not sure but it gave me a huge rush to know she is curious about my bra wearing.

I've had a few good fantasies about this little episode.

L

Late Night Wearing.

Well I haven't been able to post for a bit.  Work gets in the way too much. 

I had to do some work late tonight so I thought I'd end the night with a post.  Since I was able to work from home for this project I have been wearing a black wireless bra with lace, a pair of white panties and a black slip. 

It feels good to sit around in the lingerie.  Since I'm working late my girlfriend won't know about it.  She knows I wear lingerie but is still getting used to the idea.  I have only worn a few things with her so far since I told her how much I like to wear lingerie.  She knew when we started to date in a way.  I have always worn women's panties.  And even on the first few times we made love I wore panties.  I have never tried to hide that until now it seems.  I would occassionally wear panties during sex and it never seemed to bother her.  She seemed not to be bothered, but that was before I told her how much I enjoyed other lingerie.

Now I do hide my wearing panties and such.  I don't like to and she said I didn't have to hide it.  But it's the fact that I know she is not sure she really likes it that makes me hide it now.  Before when I was clueless it was easier.  Not sure how to move forward with that.

It seems I do like to wear it almost daily.  She did mention that it would be really weird for her if I were to wear it daily.  I can understand that.  I think it's a little weird too.   I don't know why I enjoy it so much, but I do.  Since 'coming out' with it to her my desire has increased.  Maybe I held it in check before.

I do have a nice nightie that I wish I could wear to bed sometimes.  I'm too embarrassed now to wear it again.  I did once so my girlfriend knows about it but I just can't get over the part of her not liking it.  But if I don't wear any then she'll never have the chance to warm up to the idea.

One part of wearing lingerie, especially bras, that I enjoy is getting caught by other women.  It's more then just sexual, though that is a big part of it.  It's sort of a rush too.  The excitement of getting caught doing something taboo.  I also love to get naked in front of other people, especially women.  That is also exciting.  I'll strip down naked in a heart beat if allowed.  Not that I get many chances. 

I have another appointment with the massage therapist tomorrow.  I'm thinking of wearing this nice lace beige bra I have with some panties that match.  Haven't decided yet if I'll wear a garter belt and stockings.  The massages are great, I really enjoy getting them.  It helps me in many ways and then the added bonus of being somewhat caught by the massage therapist is exciting too.  Kinda like a secret with her.  Poor girl, she probably just thinks I'm gay.  I'm going to keep doing it without saying anything to see if she'll ever mention it at all.  I know I have not offended her because she was so warm and inviting afterwards.  If I did offend her I would never go back to see her. That's the last thing I would want to do to someone.  I'm sure some people would be offended but I don't have interactions with those people.

L

My Black Bra

I don't really know why but I love to wear bras. I have this one black bra that I really do like to wear. It makes my skin tingle everywhere the bra touches. I like that feeling. And if I get a little high that tingling feelings is amplified. Why not enjoy it!

I should be doing some work right now but I wanted to put my bra on first.  The way it squeezes feels good too.

Is it really wrong for a man to enjoy wearing a bra?  It does seem odd because from what I've heard most women can't wait to take the thing off.

Here's a picture I just took of me wearing my black bra.

I know it's not the most sexy thing a man could wear but hey it feels good.  Though it would be nice if women thought men were sexy in lingerie like this.

L

Today

Ok, well not much time. I was going to try to put a picture or two up today. I wanted to post some pictures of what I was wearing today. It didn't work so well. I couldn't get a good enough picture and I was late starting working so didn't have enough time.

I will tell you what I was wearing. I'm not sure of the name, it was a one-piece black satin thing that is like a swimsuit. But it's not a swimsuit, it has the hooks in the crotch like a bra does. I wore that for awhile then went upstairs later and put on a pair of pantyhose. Those things are easy to ruin. I have three pairs and have not worn them much and they have runs from the top to the bottom. Seems everything around me grabs them somehow. Geeze, now I understand my mother yelling at me to stay away when I was a child.

Oh, along with the pantyhose I put on my favourite nude coloured bra. It's a Waycoal bra with satin at the bottom of the cups and lace on the upper half. I LOVE the feeling of that one. I need to find more like that but dag, need to find them cheaper. No wonder women don't have a lot of bras, those are expensive. WOW! Another problem is trying to find a size 40B or 42B, everything seems to be C or D range. Even on the internet it's hard to find B cups. I don't like to put anything in the cups, I like the feel of it against me.

L

Emails from a hottub while wearing a woman's black one-piece swimsuit

Well I sent some emails out tonight. All to just women that I have met and have had thoughts about every so often. If you are one them reading now, thank you so much for coming here to read further.

Foremost, I want you to know I'm not gay. I absolutely love women, especially there beautiful bodies. I love all shapes and sizes.

I have always loved to wear lingerie. Most of the time I have had feelings of shame, embarrassment and guilt over liking lingerie. I'm a very tactile person. I love to fell things and people. The feeling I get from lingerie is a tingling sexy feeling. Then the way the lingerie hugs me, like a bra or swimsuit.

Lately I decided enough is enough. I should not have to feel all those negative feelings. So what if ilike it. I'm not hurting anyone. Being so trapped with these feelings over the years has started to take is toll. So I think it's time I took control and allow myself to feel good.





Because ladies lingerie just feels damn good. If I could get away with it I'd wear it everyday under normal clothes and then wear a satin night gown to bed everynight.

If you recieved an email from me, please understand I mean no harm. I have this urge to let people know. And around this southern city that just won't work. So I stay in the closest. By sending anonymous emails to people I know it helps to squealsh that urge.

So please come back and read again. Leave a message too. That would be grand.

Thank you so much
L

Massage Therapy

I have to say, I was bad the other day.  On Tuesday of this week I had a massage at the local massage school.  My appointment was with one of the licensed massage therapist, not one of the students.  To keep this anonymous I'll have to call her Janice.  I was running late as usual so while I was filling out the necessary paper work I saw Janice standing there waiting.  WOW!  She is a petite woman with a mysterious look about her.  She was wearing the massage therapist pants and shirt that all of them wear there, nothing special but it was all black.  She has long jet black hair that was tied up some what untidily that added to her mysterious allure.

The last time I had a massage at the school I ended up with a heavy set girl.  I am not opposed to heavy set women.  In fact I kinda like them sexually.  So I was relieved to see this attractive woman.  When I get a massage it's a soothing, and I like having attractive women give me the massage, specially if they are older.  It gives me a comfort of being taken care of in a way that is motherly.  I don't know how else to say it.  I do not attach myself to this person, it's the motion of the massage that does it actually.  There is no connection to the person other then her hands.  I totally detach from who is giving the massage.  I like women who have womanly hands, long soft fingers.

On this particular appointment, I dressed in nice black stockings held up with a nice black lace garter belt.  I miss placed my favorite new black panties so I wore another pair I like with just a little lace on the leg openings.  But these panties have a nice tiny pink bow at the middle of the top band.  I also wore a Waycoal black lace bra.  At my appointment I removed all my clothes and placed the stockings, garter belt and panties on top of my pants.  I did not try to hide them at all.  Then on the chair I placed my shirt first then my black bra.  I again did not hide the bra, but I did place it in a way that she could easily tell it was a bra.  I made sure too that I did not place it as an exhibit, just kinda threw it down on top of my shirt.

I was nearly caught naked with one stocking on and my bra.  Janice thought I would be ready, she knocked on the door and started to open it.  In a panic I said just a second.  Damn, why did I say that!  Later I kept going over that and wished badly I had said nothing and let her come in to find me dressed with a bra and stocking on.  I would have embarrassed her I'm sure which I would not have liked.  It's just that I would have really like to have been 'caught'.

In a way I was caught since she was able to see that I had wore a bra and the other items to the appointment.  The extra time to get undressed I'm sure entered her mind.

I plan to go back to see her again shortly.  I love massages and it really helps me in other physical ways.  For my next appointment I will again wear something similar and place it out for her to see.  I may even make it a bit more obvious, but not so much.  I also fantasised about wearing a woman's one piece swimsuit to an appointment and placing that out for her to see as well.  I hope to continue to see her and maybe one day she will ask about my dressing.  More then likely she will not say anything is my guess.

To Begin With

Not much time here but wanted to throw something up on my new blog.

I have wanted to start a blog, but never seem to have the time to start one.  I hope to use this space to work through my love of wearing lingerie.  I'm not gay, I just love to wear lingerie.

I live with my girlfriend and recently told her that I do love to wear lingerie.  She knew this already somewhat, as I have worn panties, womens' swimsuits, and recently her slip while making love.  I'll have to post more on this subject later.

I started this a long time ago as a child.  When my parents would leave for a short period I would rush to my mother's draw of panties, put on a pair, then go find my father's stash of Playboy magazines.  I would thumb through the pictures over and over, rubbing myself the entire time. I was too young to cum yet but I really enjoyed the felling of the satin panties while looking at the naked women in Playboy.

I'll have to write more on my growing up another time.

Right now I'm wearing a black one-peice woman's bathing suit under my regular clothes of blue jeans and tee-shirt.  It feels great!